beautiful words

as jim tullett and i walked home from rehearsal under the first autum sky full of stars and blackness he told me....
"bekah, i think if i had to spend the rest of my life with you, i would be happy."
"haha. we would have fun, we'd never really argue either," i said.
"well...just enough to have make-up sex."
"haha. yeah."
"i think you're the only girl i can to say stuff like this to."

i am an idiot

how can i possibly fail to consider God's increadible work in my life. i live and act and breathe as if nothing is different, like i don't care or notice that the God of the universe chose me for himself. i did nothing, never could do anything to earn to deserve his love yet he continues to pour it out on me, delighting in me. how? why?

he is God and i am so human.

bad (good) news

when bad news is good news. dave talked to ben and found out that ben isn't really "into me" anymore. i could never be happier. i'm free to be friends with earl and see how that turns out. kate said that he was attractive. he is, but he dresses normally. and that is not my thing. but maybe we'll be cool friends.

oh life. haha. it's so weird.