why? when?

he's spending the whole weekend with his best friend....she's in love with him. is this jealousy or concern? she's wonderful, i know she is. i want to meet her becasue i believe we'd be friends and we have a lot in common. we both see his lopsided smile, the way his eyes swim with green and seem to find our eyes at the perfect moment. we both see a burning passion inside of him for all that is pure, truthful and lovely. we see Christ in him. we see a man who can love beyond all others, skinny, with floppy hair and the best arms to hug us with. we find art. he creates music that pierces through every bone in our bodies and lodges itself in our souls. we both see our friend, she sees the man she loves, i see the man my heart has grown fonder of.

he makes us alive.

why now? when will it end?

the pain in the process is making beauty out of nothing, God crafting his creatures into his will, forcing all three of us to depend solely on the love and soverignty of our holy God.