yeah

i'm tired and i want to cry. i hate the CAD lab. i want the boys to leave me alone.

shit.

pissed off

what the hell does that boy think he's doing and thinking????

God....what's his deal???? he bashes gays and everything else.

i wish i could say fuck him and everything else he does.

why is it easier for me to get along with those that are homosexuals than him, he's so biggoted.

teach me God. right now i'm really angry at him.

fuck.

oh no!

i think phil likes me. i'm trying to stop being niave. ahhhhhhhh.


go away boys. i just want to be your friend.

strange new things

yesterday i was with josh most of the day and i found out that matt molby has liked me for quite a while now, since last year. that sort of freaks me out...b/c until crystal told me on monday that he actually does really like me i didn't have much of a clue.

greg, phil and david were teasing me about josh yesterday and they all said that they've thought for a while that he likes me. i really really hope not.

phil bought me a sweater at goodwill yesterday, that was so cool of him but i hope he doesn't mean anything by it.

ahhhhh......!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and erin's boy life is out of control. and i just want to see her and ben and have life be normal.

he is....

a bastard and a prick.