a not so secret thought

whoa. God, does the craziest things sometimes.

tonight it was date night with dan and, holy smokes, quite the date it turned out to be. we bundled up and headed out for an "adventure". we walked through town and headed out 42 until we came across and empty lot. we went through the field and then through some woods until we climbed down between some rock faces near the stream.

dan pulled out a blanket and we bundled up and watched the stars blink through the black, naked branches of the trees. we talked, just talked and talked and let the silence do some more talking for us. God stuff, life, everything, us. the way it always is.

at one point i told him that i really liked me. he returned the comment and then the silence fell heavy with a phrase neither of us had the courage to say. dan said he wanted to say more but felt it might be best to wait and i agreed.

we got up and walked back through the trees until we stepped out into the edge of the field where the sky seemed to rip open thousand more stars, just for us. we stood there speachless, just marveling at God. and then dan said.

"if i love you, i might as well say it....Rebekah Nettekoven I love you."
"i love you dan tello."
"is it alright if i kiss you?"
"yes" it was just a whisper as our lips met underneath the billion stars and their lights and under the cold night expance and under God.

the funny thing was the whole "i love you" phrase was one of the most rational, reasoned thougths i've ever had. in fact that's what i referenced in the last post. i'm not sure why, but i knew, without the fuzziness, b/c i never trust an emotional buzz, that this was it. it was okay to say it and i really really meant it. i meant it with all that i am now and all that i will become in the future. i know it's there. so crazy. coming from me, the most independent of people. this was the last place i saw myself.

regardless that adventure will last in my head forever. and ever.

wow. i love dan tello. and dan tello loves me.